this is MY year!

OK - I think I am ready to unveil my theme (goals) for 2010.

Before I reveal the "plan" - here is bit of the reasoning behind it. I have really been struggling, for quite a while with feelings of depression and anxiety. I have not been happy with my life - in general, yet I knew "logically" there was no good reason to feel the way I've been feeling. I'm sure you all know how the cycle goes next. Because I have the "blah's" - that leads to not doing all the little things that make a big difference in life. (spiritual things like reading scriptures and saying prayers, and temporal things like cleaning the house and eating right.)

So - pretty much my goal for this year began as "get into shape" and "beat this depression." That doesn't have a very nice ring does it? Not really catchy enough to use as a daily mantra. I thought about it some more, and I came up with:

"healthy again in 2010." - better, it rhymes, but not quite all I wanted it to be.

I knew that it referred to physical, spiritual, and mental/emotional health, but I wanted the mantra to reflect that a little bit more....

So here is the final draft of my 2010 motto. (unless I decide to tweak it again at a later date)

Healthy & Happy once again
this is MY year - 2010
(catchy isn't it...)

The plan is 3 fold.

#1 - I am training to participate in a sprint distance triathlon, to be held in May. I'm all registered for it and paid my fees, so that will be my guideline and motivation for the physical aspect of this goal. (wouldn't be sad if I lost about 20 lbs here, but that isn't the GOAL - it would just be a BONUS!)

#2 - I will refocus on my spiritual health. I will read my scriptures daily, both individually and as a family. I will pray daily, both morning and night. (I shouldn't admit this out loud, but this has always been rather difficult for me. (except while on my mission. it was natural then...) I guess I never really developed the habit.)

#3 - I will regain my mental/emotional health. I will do this by getting a full and complete physical, eating well, take my vitamins, keeping a daily gratitude journal, AND going to both my regular midwife as well as to an alternative health center to get some testing done to identify any physical reason(s) for the depression. If there IS an identifiable reason, then I have no problem treating that cause. I just have issues with walking into an office, telling the dr you are depressed, then walking out with a prescription to mask the symptoms. If there is something wrong - I want to FIX what is wrong - not just cover it up!

So there you have it - my plan for the year. I am going to make it a good one. I have noticed a postive change already - just by saying my mantra for the past week (sort of trying it on for size...) and jotting down things that happened throughout the day that I was grateful for. The little things can and do make a difference.

PS - I have tried 5 times to re-size the text, (the part that outlines the 3 points of my plan - it is supposed to be normal size...) with no luck - what's up with that????